I am now 9 lbs. above my goal of 125 lbs. and two people have told me that I should not lose any more weight...yet, I look in the mirror and yes, my legs are thin & my wrists are thin and yet, there is still a tire around my belly. Nine more pounds in that area would be wonderful! There is no way I am going to stop losing weight when I am only 9 lbs. away from a weight that I have been dreaming of for years! I do not care if I look like a stick, I want to weigh 125 lbs! It's what I weighed when I graduated high school. I know it is "Just a number", but it is MY number! I am not consciously trying to lose anymore weight. I am only trying to eat healthy. I eat good, low fat, sugar free foods. I am not going to change those habits in order to stop losing weight or, heaven forbid, gain any weight back. I think, once I start going to the gym and lifting weights, I will not look so bony and hopefully, I will get some curves back!
It is rare that I get ill anymore, thank goodness. I have learned to slow down and to recognize when I am full. There are times when the food tastes so danged good, I want to devour it. But, I don't. I make myself stop because I can feel the nausea coming on. One more bite and I will be visiting the restroom. I haven't had an incident yet where someone else was in the restroom when I've gotten sick, thank goodness.
Fall is finally here!! I can't wait to pair some cute jeans with sweaters and my new little jacket! I will be glad when the weight stabilizes so that I can buy some pants and know that they will be fitting me from now on. I'm kind of a 7/8 right now, but some 8's are too big. My hardest thing to deal with is my breasts. Although I wear a D-cup, they don't fit in the bra correctly because they're so flat and bendy. There's no volume to them. I will def need a breast lift and implants when this is all over and done with, big boobs are part of who I am and I feel a little lost right now!
Well, off to devour dinner since it's way past my normal dinner time. Til next time...
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