Hello hello! Yes, it's been awhile and I couldn't even tell you WHY I haven't been on my blog, I guess I've just been tired and unmotivated. Having some major problems with the fibromyalgia in my back & shoulders and can't afford the masseuse. Sucks big time. I should get my but down to the gym to sit in the jacuzzi, not to mention I need to get back to a work-out routine, because I haven't gone in ages! Even walking has slowed down as of late since I've had something going on just about every night of the week.
So, we bought Britt a little Kia Rio5 sporty hatchback, so that is one worry off of my shoulders. It's really cute and great on gas, so that's a great thing. We were able to get it at a good price. One less stress for me now that I don't have to pick her up from practices and football games.
My hair loss continues and it's starting to depress me. I've always had thick, luscious hair and it is now thin and not wanting to style. The bangs are so thin, there is no volume to my 80's do! lol...I'm fortunate that others say they can't tell, but I can certainly tell. I'm down 89 lbs. now and only 12 lbs. to goal. I have a feeling that I will get below goal, but we shall see. My upper body is pretty bony and I'm not sure I like how thin my face is becoming. My boobs have lost all their volume and will definitely need work later on. But, although this sounds negative, it's not. My body is not exactly sexy, but it is not horrible either. It is the body of a somewhat thin 45 year old woman. A normal woman who has given birth and lived her life, not a supermodel or actress on television that can afford personal trainers and lots of plastic surgery. I do plan on having a tummy tuck, arm repairs and a boob job somewhere down the line. But, that is about two years away, when things stabilize and my body adjusts to a new, thinner me. I am healthy as far as my blood pressure is low normal, my diabetes is gone and my cholesterol, although I haven't been tested yet, I'm sure is much better than it was a mere six months ago. Everyone says I look so different. I am looking forward to going to the Cross Court tournament this year just to see the reactions of those people that have known me for years and watched me enlarge over time. Now, they will see a whole new me and I bet some of them don't even recognize me. In fact, my bosses son, who is 10 told me today that my face has even changed a lot.
So, my hunger has returned and I am still struggling with things to eat that are protein. I prefer a few fat-free crackers over a piece of lunch meat or something. I feel guilty for eating anything, which I shouldn't. I am allowed to eat healthy foods, but I struggle with the guilt of eating anything that is a carb. There are days when I do eat too many carbs and not enough protein, so thank goodness I'm pretty religious about drinking my protein shake everyday. The water is still an issue - more so than ever. I have to consciously think and force myself to drink. My weight loss continues, so I must be doing it right. And, that's without exercise. Imagine when I finally do start a work-out routine. I know that I will gain when I start lifting weights because muscle weighs more than fat, but I'm hoping that doesn't happen for awhile, as I hope to continue to lose the fat off my belly.
Well, that's it for now folks...I think I've jabbered enough. Til next time!!
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