Somebody Stop Me!! (08/25/08)

I can't seem to stop eating today....I've had two helpings of grapes, which are basically pure carbs, and then 3 fat-free crackers along with my partial buritto for lunch and a couple of the sugar-free Nips candys. I'm stressing today - we sold our old car on Saturday and now we're trying to find a new one for Brittany and the money crunching is stressing me out...I've also started trying to sell MaryKay products and I've sent out e-mails to all of my friends and haven't heard from any of them!! Well, I've heard from like three of the hundred. I was hoping my friends would throw some little parties and I'd be able to get some business started. At least enough to start me off with some confidence. I sure hope this is a good thing for me - it's better than working at a department store every night, but it's not any good if I don't do any sales...ugh!! On a brighter note, I am 18 lbs. away from goal - I've lost 83 lbs. so far. I have one more month until I go for my 3-month check up at Dr. Machado's office, so I'm hoping to have lost another 8-10 lbs. by then. I was originally hoping to be at goal by that appointment, but I don't think that's going to happen. I should be close, but I don't think I can lose 18 in one month nor do I want to. That wouldn't be healthy. As it is, I'm now losing 1-2 lbs. a week instead of 3-4 lbs. Too many carbs which is slowing me down. Even though they are healthy carbs, like in grapes, they are still carbs. Plus, I haven't exercised in the last week. I've been having some issues with nausea after I take my meds in the morning and evening. I mean bad. Seems to upset my stomach something horrible. I don't know if it's one of the new pills I'm taking (for my hair loss + vitamin D + a laxative). So, I think I'll stop taking all three and add one back at a time and see if it's a reaction to that. It sucks though - I literally have to lie down afterwards for a good half an hour. Not a good feeling!! It has been nice to do a little shopping now & then though and be in the smaller sizes. I can't believe I'm wearing a medium shirt. Of course, the boobs have disappeared now...lol. I even had fun dancing at my sister & brother-in-laws wedding renewal ceremony last Saturday and I wasn't exhausted or sweaty at the end of the evening!! Well, that's it for this edition...lol...til next time!

Plateau's Over (08/17/08)

Well, I went back on the blood pressure medication and within 2 days I had lost the 4 lbs. that I put on while i was off of it PLUS i've lost another 3 lbs. this week. I've completely stayed away from the crackers, which was hard for a day but then quickly became the norm again. Thank goodness!! I went out with friends on Friday night to a club in Sacramento and everyone was telling me how wonderful I looked. It was quite nice to finally feel that I am acceptable in public again. I'm no longer embarassed to walk into a room. The club was okay and it was nice that there were a lot of people our age there, but the music itself wasn't quite to my liking. I did enjoy dancing with the girls and our friend Tony. Anyways, I'm off to watch a movie but wanted to share that I'd lost 7 lbs. total this week...yahoo!!! I've only got 20 to go to reach goal! Yahoozers! lol....Til next time

Bloated Feelings (08/14/08

Lately, I have to wonder whether my "pouch" is still working. I was, as I posted, going through a rough patch of eating a lot of carbs - mainly Ritz crackers. So, I got rid of all those. My weight was staying about the same for the past two weeks, so I knew I was in a dreaded plateau. So, I eliminated the crackers, with the exception of I have one serving every night before bed, which I take with my night time meds. So, I then stopped taking the blood pressure medication. My doctor said we should try it and see what happens. So, I went off and within 3 days I had gained 4 lbs. Here I was, happy that I'd just lost two pounds and was now at 148 lbs. Then, Bam!! I'm back up to 152. My feet and hands were swollen like crazy. So, I decided to go back on the blood pressure meds, because I don't like this feeling of swelling. So, I went back on yesterday. Today, I weighed myself and I am at 151 lbs - down 1 lb. This is good, and I'm hopeful that I will be down the additonal 3 lbs. I gained. The only thing that could have made me gain was the meds. I've been eating the same as usual. But, today, I feel soooo bloated. I had my shake for breakfast - a sugar-free low fat pudding and 4 ozs. of healthy request soup and an atkins bar for lunch and lots of water and sugar free kool-aid. So, why do I feel so bloated? I feel like I'm over full although I don't think I ate too much. Is my pouch still working? Lately, it seems I'm eating more, although if I measure, I'm right on my mark. I've been walking at least every other night, so I know I'm getting in my exercise. More than I usually get, since this seems to be my hardest challenge. Maybe it's just a combination of a bunch of stuff - ending my monthly cycle, messing with my meds, the heat, etc. Am I doing something wrong or am I just trying to convince myself? Very frustrating...guess I need to step back and assess the situation and figure out what has changed, if anything. Maybe, just maybe, my body is now adjusting to the change of eating habits and decided not to lose more weight. Yet, the scale doesn't change but the clothes fit differently - definitely looser...wierd. So, who's up for the fair tonight? lol...the exercise will do me good and I will refrain from eating anything bad for me! Til next time....

Boredom is my Enemy (08/03/08)

Yes, it is true - for all of us, I believe, that boredom is our enemy. I find, more so lately, that I wander to the fridge whenever I am bored. I have been keeping myself out of there, for the most part, but boredom plays such a big role for those of us that struggle with our weight on a daily basis. I never realized until I had gastric bypass surgery just how much I snacked before. I use eating as my sole comfort - whether I am upset, angry, bored or a multitude of emotions in between. So, I took off two days from work last week and I kept myself BUSY. On Thursday, I woke up early (which I hadn't planned, but I couldn't sleep) and I did laundry and some errands and then Brittany and I went to Judy's for lunch. I had half of one of their burrito's....quite yummy!! Then, in the afternoon we spent about an hour and a half at DMV, where she passed her driving test with flying colors (no errors!!) and she is now officially a licensed teen driver. Friday, I met up my girls, Carla & Traci and went to lunch and then Britt and I went shopping for some school clothes. Again, no problems with food because I was busy, busy, busy. Saturday, I was lazy at home allllllll ddddaaaaayyyyyy loooooonnnnngggg and I munched. Crackers and cherries....both to be eaten in moderation. However, I way overdid it. So, I was surprised this morning to see that I hadn't gained the pound I'd lost a few days ago back. So, got up early again this morning and walked for an hour then came home, did more chores (those bastards never go away, do they??!!!) and then laid in the pool for about two hours, turning like a chicken on a rotisserie! lol...I'm nice and pink now, I'd say about medium rare...lol

I did buy a few pair of shorts because my legs have really gotten pretty skinny and it looks like I have a couple of sticks in my other shorts. Those are all going to charity. Now, hopefully, the last 25 lbs. will come off my belly, which is still my sore spot!! Although it's obviously gone down considerably, it still sticks out and I can't wear the shirts I want to wear...plus, my boobies are looking pretty sad these days...lol....where did wrinkles on my cheche's come from? ha ha ha

Well, that's it for now...oh! I'm down 77 lbs. so far - 24 to get to goal! Woot woot!! My size 8's are very comfortable now and not tight...yee haw!! I'm hoping to be about a size 4 by the time I'm done, but we'll see...I keep thinking the weight loss is slowing down but it's been 12 or so pounds since my last doctor's appointment on the 25th of June, so I think I'm still right on schedule....about 2 lbs. a week, which is perfect!

Til next time!!