Progress Continues (06/26/08)

Hello mates...lol...I had another doctors appointment this morning and was able to see Dr. Machado - I am down 63 lbs. total and she says that I am doing excellent and actually above average in my weight loss, so I'm a happy camper today! I don't have to go back for three months now, so it will be interesting to see where I will be at the end of September. I stopped by Kohl's on the way back to work and found three cute dresses on sale. Since I have a couple of weddings to attend this summer and these are adjustable, I got them each for about $10 each. Great sale! Too bad I didn't have more time - I just considered it my half hour that I use for lunch time.

I am feeling well, although my back has been hurting a lot lately with the Fibromyalgia. I had a massage on Tuesday, but it is still sore. My knees and feet no longer bother me though, so that is a definate plus! I also got myself a tube top, which I may wear this weekend to Brittany's softball tournament so that I can get some sun on my shoulders. We all know that the tanner we are, the thinner we look! So, tan away!!

Still having an occasional barfing session when I eat too quickly. Eventually, I'm hoping I will learn to slow my ass down. I just feel so good, I forget and shovel it in. I went to dinner with Brittany yesterday to Vinces and couldn't eat my dinner - nothing better than a barf session in a public place! Fortunately, nobody could hear me from the bathroom. It wasn't a bad one or a long session, so I took my dinner home and was able to eat about an hour later when I'd slowed my butt down.

I've found the the heat from summer doesn't bother me like it used to. You all know that after the weather warmed up, I was sweating like crazy if it was over 75 degrees outside. Now, I'm good until it gets to the 90's. I used to keep the air conditioning on at about 76 degrees and now I keep it around 81-82. Crazy, isn't it? Even my skin is different, not nearly as oily as it used to be. Thank goodness for that!!

Well, that's it for now - I need to actually get some work accomplished today. Hope you're all gearing up for the weekend - til next time.....

Cherries (06/17/08)

So, all this time I was thinking that cherries were 90 calories and 2 grams of sugar for one cup - I've been in heaven the past few weeks, munching my cherries like there's no tomorrow....I love my cherries. Come to find out last night that cherries are 19 grams of sugar in one cup...yikes! What have I been doing to myself?!! I didn't test my blood sugars, but now I've had to give up my favorite fruit in the whole wide world....I'm going to sulk all day long...lol

I'm down a total of 61 lbs. so far and have been wondering lately if the pouch is still working because it seems like I'm starting to get hungry again AND it seems like I'm eating too much. But, when I measure it out, I'm still eating 3-4 ounces. I have gotten in the habit lately of eating some cherries in the morning and a couple of fat-free crackers in the afternoon and I need to stop that - there really isn't a need to be snacking, I'm just bored and restless. I was also getting in the habit of eating and then weighing myself, which is really rediculous, so I have stopped doing that as well. Yes, I do weigh myself every day and yes, I know that you're not supposed to do that. But, for me, it works to keep me focused on my goals. I am determined that once I lose this weight, I will not let my old habits take hold of me and make me gain anything back. My biggest fear right now is that it's just suddenly going to stop coming off and I'm not where I want to be yet. I want to be called petite for once in my life. Lord knows, I'm five two, I want to be tiny like the skinny girl who's fighting her way out of this body right now. I just pray I don't turn into a massive pile of floppy skin.

I, yes me!, have actually been working out. Went twice last week and once this week. Planning to go again tomorrow and on Friday. I'm walking too. Pretty good for having as many projects as I have going on and Aunt Flow had to fricken visit too, the old bitch. lol

I've been talking to a couple of friends that had the WLS because I've been feeling so fat this last week. Must be from my period, but I just feel bloated in my upper tummy. My ass is going flat, my arms jiggle with every breeze, but my BIG FAT GUT WONT GO AWAY!!! What the hell? That's the fattest, that should have been the first to go. But no, nothing will cooperate. Now, it's gonna probably be the boobs next and the gut will still be there. Grrrrrrrr......lol

Well, enjoy your week...I'm craving a snack and I don't want to eat so I'm going to go for a short walk around my building a few times and see if I can feed me a squirrel or two before I get back to work. Hugs til next time....

Grad Week (06-08-08)

Been awhile since I've posted, but nothing exciting has been going on! lol...Let's see, I've been feeling better and was quickly dropping pounds over the past week and then suddenly gained one pound back! I don't know what that's all about, unless it's just because I've not been getting in my fluids. So, I've been concentrating on that over the past few days and we'll see what happens. I was excited that I bought some size 12 jeans and they fit! Woot woot! I spent this morning working up a sweat and completely redid my pantry and threw out a bunch of stuff, including boxes of stuff that expired about five years ago! lol...I'm such a horder...rediculous!

Me and Cathy went to our support meeting last Monday and what a depressing and disappointing meeting it was!! They brought in a guest speaker - a plastic surgeon from UCD Med center. Although he was fine, the before & after pictures were horrible! These must have been worst case scenarious, because I know many people that have had plastic surgery (and weight loss surgery) and they don't look like that. I felt they should have thrown in some pictures of amazing results as well as the others. Not everyone is going to look so horrible after weight loss surgery and they don't give enough details, like the peoples ages and height, etc. Just total weight loss. The other dumb thing was that the pictures were of peoples NAKED bodies (did we really need that crotch shot or penis shot?) but the pictures of the face lifts had little squares over the peoples eyes! lol...You can see my penis but you can't see my eyes!! Deeerrrrrrrrrr....lol

I've been doing well - maybe a little too well because it felt like I was eating out of control for a couple of days. Looking back (and I keep a journal of what I eat - try www.fitday.com) I really wasn't out of control or over eating. I was wondering if my pouch wasn't working for me suddenly because I was feeling full. And, I never feel "full", I just feel like stopping my eating. But, maybe this was the full feeling actually kicking into gear again? I dunno...but, I'm making sure that I weigh out my food to make sure I'm eating the right amounts and I've gotta make sure that I don't snack when I don't need to. I've been enjoying my cherries though! lol I think part of the problem this week has been that the weathers been so nice (aside from the wind!!) and I'm bored being inside, whether it's at home or work, and so my old feelings of wanting to snack on something have been hitting me. It's easy at work because there's no snacks in the house but at home, I have to be careful. Thus, that's why I cleaned my pantry and yesterday I cleaned out my closet and got rid of a bunch of clothes that just do not fit anymore.

Well, time for me to shower...til next time!