Emotional Eating (07-15-08)

I am so glad that my birthday has come and passed. I don't really know if I was depressed, angry, sad or what but all I could think of yesterday was that I wanted to eat. I think I was disappointed because no one in my family made a big deal out of my day, yet it was what I told them I wanted. I am, I now know, my own worst enemy at times. It is hard to lose this weight and feel better about myself yet I cannot afford to shop and buy new clothes. It kind of takes some of the fun away. I just keep in mind that during Christmas, my bosses treat me very well and I will have money for a shopping trip. But, when it is 100 degrees outside and the holidays are many months away, it is difficult to be enthusiastic about a shopping trip. Besides, knowing me, I will spend the money on my family and have very little left for myself. That is just who I am, for better or for worse...blah blah blah. So, anyways, back to my eating issues...yes, when I am emotionally drained or depressed, it is quite easy for me to graze all day long and boy, do I crave those carbs!! I discovered the 100 calorie packs of sun chips and I need to stay away from those! Although I can only eat one pack, it would be very easy to eat one pack every hour!! The carbs seem to set off this out of control behavior that I've had trouble with in the past. So, no more of that for me. Til next time...