Weight Update, etc. (05-02-2008)

Hello hello! I went to see my doctor yesterday and I am down another 5 lbs. This makes 27 lbs. since the surgery and 41 lbs. altogether. The past two weeks have been a bit of a challenge emotionally, but I am doing well. The cravings haven't stopped entirely, but for the most part are not an "all-the-time" kind of thing like they were in the beginning. It is true what they say about the "head hunger" being a bitch. I am beginning to see the changes though that are happening to my psyche. I am finding that I am no longer thinking about food every waking hour, which excites me. It used to be, I'd be eating lunch and thinking about what sounded good for dinner. I'd do that all day long. I also didn't think of myself as much of a snacker but have discovered that is not true. I used to snack on a bag of chips in the afternoon and then go home and eat two raw hotdogs after work or stop for an ice cream and then eat a large dinner. I am waking up to just how badly I did actually eat. I have now graduated from pureed foods to soft foods, which is wonderful. Sometimes, because I am feeling so good, I will begin to eat and go a little too fast and then, if I don't realize it in time, whatever went down comes back up. It's not fun, so I have kind of set up a little routine for my meals so that I won't forget that my eating style has now changed and their is no over doing it without hell to pay! lol This morning was a mini-wow moment because I'd pulled out a pair of pants that I'd been wanting to get into only to discover that they are a bit too big. I was able to wear them, but they are a bit loose! lol...Gotta love it!! It is still hard to picture myself mentally for being a thin girl, I've been fat or "chubby" since I graduated from high school, so my brain just can't imagine it yet. But, I am 59 lbs. from my goal weight and am quite positive I will achieve my goal and perhaps, exceed it. Well, that's it for now...til next time! Tootle!